UTTERLY EXHAUSTED

I am SO UTTERLY EXHAUSTED, EMOTIONALLY DRAINED, TIRED....

I don't know why my quiet times are more draining than refreshing. Am I doing something wrong? It's been so emotionally draining fighting every single time.. I feel like I'm at the binge of falling back. Those demon faces are so much prevalent in my mind than before.. do I just have a wild sense of imagination?! My old life, my flesh.. are just begging to take over my life again.. and I am just getting weaker, weaker, and weaker. I feel discouraged.. like I'm bound to lose anyways..it's just a matter of time. So what if I had victories Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday? Temptations only get stronger each time. It's gonna happen so soon.

LIES LIES LIES ARGH.

Anyways, Lacey went through Mark with me today and after reading this verse, I decided to go home instead of worship practice.
"Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest."

I am not going to do anything tonight. I am heading to bed. That shall be my most powerful weapon right now.

Thank You, Lord Jesus. FOR REST.