Complete Cut

I miss youth group. I miss worship team practices. I miss girl small groups with Tator. I miss winteRetreats. I miss tappin` and playing sp00ns. I miss praying and worshippin` together. I miss NERTS. I miss playing ultimate with Daddy and the rest. I miss sunday school. I miss our massive endless facebook threads from prayeRequests to randomness. I miss our spontaneous hangouts at Tator's place. I miss the sleepovers. I MISS IT, I MISS IT, I MISS ITT!!!

We were all so close.. like a big family. We were so different and yet, united by the blood of Jesus Christ. You guys were truly my family... but what is up with this family now? One summer... and all these complete cuts. INTENTIONAL complete cuts that HURT. What? No facebook. No text. No phonecalls. No hearing about each other. No this, no that. Complete cut, no communication WHATSOEVER. And even better, both of these complete cuts have to do with ME. Is there something wrong with ME? No No, don't let the Evil Idiot put lies in your head.

I miss my brother in Christ. I was always so comfortable with him.. say anything anytime. I miss having late night conversations with Him.. and THAT is where the problem began. But mostly, I miss walking alongside Him, encouraging Him, hurting with Him, and just being a sister. THAT is gone too. And that this time, I have to choose to not talk to Him whatsoever.. to truly be his sister in Christ.

Dear Lord Jesus, we're doing all this for You. We're completely cutting from one another so that we will draw closer to You, not each other.

I miss it all but no more toothpicks. Let's stand on the ROCK.