Make The Pain Worth It.

"Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith...."

Pain can either mold me or break me. Recently, I've discovered that using my own human frail hands to forget my daunting memories leads to self-sufficiency. Intimacy with the Lord is the key and I should let the Lord take care of the rest. I've been growing so much through my quiet times aka "noise times." Instead of running away from my throbbing pain, I choose to sit there, FEEL IT, EXPRESS IT, and allow the Lord to heal me. Unfortunately, it's been harder lately. I feel the demons relentlessly finding opportunities to sneak their ways back into my heart. They're fighting to take grounds back in my quiet times and throwing me a bunch of lies while I tried so hard to focus on the Lord. In pain, it is SO EASY to simply fall back in my old ways. Their lies are so convincing.. that my intimacy with the Lord is fake and that I should just take the easier way out- SIN. I keep having thoughts that our God is a selfish God who wants to leech off our souls through pain and all this to feed his selfish ego. Sometimes, I even have an image of Him smiling maliciously at me while I sit in pain. But, why would a selfish God sent His only son to die and suffer public humiliation for a sinful soul like me?

It's so draining to sit and feel pain.. and yet so easy to simply escape and relieve myself.Those bastards. Jesus already defeated them on the cross.

I was almost broken in my pain so many times. Those lies bombarded my mind and it's so difficult to find my way back to the Truth. It's always good to call up a sister in Christ and have them remind me of God's love. I have chosen to be obedient and let the pain mold me. Now, it takes a lot more heart-throbbing hours to let pain mold me.. and yet, with each victory, I am only stronger and more intimate with the Lord. Thank You, Lord Jesus.

"And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm, and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen."

I have full confidence that my sufferings and hurts will only mold me into a strong, firm, and steadfast warrior for Christ. And in the end, I can only humbly kneel before my Lord and thank Him for my heart-throbbing, nose-stuffing, throat-hurting, eyes-bawling "noise" times. I'm gonna make the most out of these pains.... Lord Jesus, you are worth it and this is ALL FOR YOUR GLORY, AND YOURS ONLY.

Love

"Love is doing WHATEVER IT TAKES to bring someone closer to JESUS CHRIST."

Cr0wnedGrace because..
Stephanie = Crowned One
Charis = Grace