But through it all....

lifting my hands. screaming praise songs in the car. admiring the rain. praying to sleep. intimate quiet times. memorable prayers. caking ines. deep conversations. running around everywhere. stuffing down food. pulling up pants. pictures. yummycake & you are my sunshine. delicious korean food. talkingwithkin2 till weeweehours. strumming my heart out. karen jumping out of drumbox. you lifted me out. you send me dancing. free now i am free. taking silly pictures. booger girl. webcam with new friends. writing encouragement cards. facebook everywhere. poptheback with clement. la mads with dana. leaving karen a voicemail. beautiful innocence sketch. sow&reap. SOAK. hotchocolate with rosa. elbows everywhere. awesome sunday service. uncountable texts. meeting new friends. praising God. porkchop sandwich.

holding boogers hand.
rubbing turtle's elbows.
talking meowmeowfun.
........... .

what a great week. what a fun weekend.
but through it all, there is still something so missing... so lonely...so ripped apart.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY HEART, GOD?

One tear in the driving rain
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the Maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would you come close and
HOLD MY HEART?!?

Holy Spirit, teach me to be genuine to face my pain.
Abba Father, teach me to keep praising you through all trials.
Jesus, teach me to understand the depths of Your love.

I am here. Waiting. I am not copping out.
I am Yours, only.