LOVE in TRUTH

Forgiving Myself.
I have forgiven myself this week. When I received God's forgiveness, I was also able to forgive her. But HOW, HOW could I forgive myself for those horrendous things I did? I, Twig Stephanie Setiawan, screwed it ALL UP!!!!! It was my fault from the beginning. Apart from Jesus Christ, I will hate myself forever. But NO!!! He washed me white as snow and gave me the power to live a righteous life through the Holy Spirit. The issue of forgiving myself.. ultimately comes down to the question - WHO IS IN CHARGE OF MY LIFE? If I choose to not forgive myself, that is a clear sign that I am still wearing the crown of my life. But the crown..belongs to my Maker, my Master, my BestFriend, my Lover, my Authority, my Hope, my Peace, my Salvation.. it belongs to You, my dear Lord Jesus. I forgive myself, I forgive her..not by my own will, but by the precious blood of Jesus Christ. I have forgiven myself much because He has forgiven me much.

Dangerous Prayer.
I considered myself crazy when I made that prayer a few days ago. I know that if it's according to HIS DIVINE WILL, it will be answered. On the other hand, I was SO SCARED that He would answer it. If he answers this prayer, it would hurt me so deeply and yet, I know that His will is always THE BEST. Though I fear, I am ready to face the "consequences" (more like, positive consequences) of it. I have never truly learned to love until these past few weeks. Love is doing whatever it takes to bring someone closer to Jesus Christ. That prayer was my deepest expression of my love for my Lord, for myself, and for her. I'm ready, Lord Jesus.

"Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in TRUTH. This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything." 1 John 3:18-20

Highlights
So, Kelly highlighted my hair and wow, this time, it turned out quite obvious. Thank you, Kin2 :) I'm not sure why I wanted so badly to get a change. New heart, new life, new friends, new room, new mind... why not new hair? Bwah ha ha. By the way, Kin2 HACKED MY FACEBOOK.. that's usually my job. Now I know what it feels like.....