The Weekend

He texted me. It's been a while since I've heard from him..and all this time, I know that he hasn't been doing too great. He said he needed a friend.. and he needs me to be that friend. I was so worried.. I've been worried. I'm glad I chose not to text him back.. to continue our complete cut. My slight communication with him may only draw him towards me, not Christ. I don't necessarily understand why he chose to completely cut from me.. but I know it was the Holy Spirit's leading.. I know I don't need to be with him to encourage him. Jesus can do that. He is under God's mighty hand. I need to let go and pray for him fervently. Be with Him, Jehovah Rapha.

I find myself always asking God in agony, "DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY HEART?"
But I've only learned this past weekend that in order for me to understand if He understands my heart, I need to understand HIS heart first.. cause when I truly understand His, I would see that He truly understands mine.
I have 749572 reasons to feel horrible.. but in midst of it all, He has taught me to find joy in every single little thing. He has taught me to see HIS GOODNESS in all. Thank You, Lord Jesus.

The weekend~
oovoo with austin. esther's cheerful voice. eekaygee. worship night. not clarity or eloquence but HOLY SPIRIT. ihop's danish crepes. sleepover at kinpuffs. bellybutton talk. lunch with sonyashantinimorganineskinpuffs. smallgroup skittles. bibleversesharing. nerts with sg. quieTime with Evonne. sleepover at kinpuffs. palmtreehairfun. bathroom joy. laughingourbuttsoff. kinpuffs faces. talk till 330am. cant sleep. fellasleep 530am onmyknees praying. statefair. strawberrychocolatecoveredwaffleballs. deepfriedpeachesandcream. turkeylegs. kinpuffs the hunter. JT the photographer. neil&debbie. screamingmylungsout on the ride. jumPictures. awesome massage. singing praise songs on darTrain. squish. boyscookpasta @ neil's. braidhair. lyingonbed, cryingouttoGod. daogao because i need You. prayingwith Rosa.ines' boringvoice :). peacefulsleep. taphouse noisy quietime. clements yummy omelette. dashingovertokinpuffs. pattingkinpuffstosleep. restInChrist. yellownote. talk2sandy in the car till sundown. pouringrain. delicious luobuogao. hearinghermomlaughandtalkendlessly. somuchjoy. yo tengopazalegria en mi corazon!!!

They're all blessings from you. As painful as life gets, I choose to find You and praise You in all little things. including elbows :)

The verse that Evonne shared: "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."