Dramas

I don't understand dramas. I really don't. The last drama I had was in 9th grade and it was pretty heart-wrenching. I lost a best friend I had for three years.. even a year ago, when my close friend and I found out that we liked the same guy, we joked about it, moved on and didn't even quarrel about it. It's really no big deal at all.

But people are so hurt from all the dramas that's been going on.. people are abandoned, exhausted, stabbed, betrayed.. even between brothers and sisters in Christ. Are they really..IN CHRIST?! What exactly is lacking? Humility? Understanding? Communication? THE BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST?!

This past summer, there's so much that happened in my life.. and I don't even consider it a drama. Though it was the biggest mistake I've ever made in my life, it was also the greatest stepping stone. I really praise God that He has the full ability and power to redeem all that Satan destroyed. Even though my friend and I are completely cut from one another, I believe that this break is the deepest kind of reconciliation we can have with God and each other. It's a very heart-wrenching, yet EXTREMELY BEAUTIFUL break. Thank You, Jesus.

Sandy did insist that I have drama in my life though..but with God. It's true. I've got some intense drama with my Ahbujii every single day. It goes from falling unto the ground, rolling back and forth, screaming my lungs out to an empty house, pounding on the walls, running to the bathroom almost puking, speaking in words I don't even understand, shaking my fist and asking why, pillows drenched in tears, agonizing journal entries, disregarding red lights and zooming down the streets... to laying on my bed in complete peace, raising my hands and yelling out praise songs, soaking in His love and melting in His grace, feeling warm shivers down my body, random comfort through visions, rejoicing in my pain, His patience in my impatience.. and best of all, having my Father whisper in my ear, "Yes, I'm here.. I'm here.."
I've got the most intense..yet best drama in the world..with my bestest Lover and Friend. :)

During my SOAK time today, "My Beloved" was playing in the background..

"I'll breathe My life inside of you
I'll bear you up on eagle's wings
And I'll hide you in the shadow of My strength,
I'll take you to My quiet waters,
I'll restore your soul.
Come rest in me and BE MADE WHOLE.."

I just laid on my bed..and literally melted.
"Yes, Lord, I'll rest in You..ONLY YOU... please make me whole.."

and dozed off...zzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

Random quote: "If something cannot be done to the GLORY OF GOD, then we can be sure it must be OUT OF THE WILL OF GOD."