Picture stolen from and taken by Kinpuffs :)As the deer panteth for the water
So my soul longeth after Thee..
You alone are my heart's desire
And I long to worship Thee..
This morning, I come before You again, only to realize that there is a DEEP NEED FOR INTIMACY in my heart. Andrea calls it a "depth of heart" that both of us possess. You created this deep need for intimacy.. You, AHBUJII, hemmed me in with this desire for intimacy when I was still in my mother's womb. This deep need for intimacy can only be SATISFIED AND FULFILLED by You.. and I've relentlessly tried to fill it up with so much CRAP.
I'm mostly grieved to think about the fact that I've done nothing in the past but break Your heart. I tried to find lovers everywhere when my Greatest First Love was standing right infront of me, pleading for me to run into His arms. I was nothing but a whore. I'm mostly grieved to think about the rift that I caused between us.. to think about how badly Your heart throbbed when You saw me gave myself away each time I fall. You desired so bad to pick up those shattered pieces of my heart and yet, I blatantly pushed you away.. OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
Lord Jesus, my First Love, there is nothing between us now. The strongholds were deep, deep, and FRIGGING DEEP. Completing cutting me from these worthless idols was the deepest pain I've ever felt in my life. But Ahbujii, I chose to allow You to rip them away so that You can truly be my Groom. Thank You, once again, from delivering me from the darkness into light. Thank You, once again, for pouring joy and strength into my life every morning. Thank You that you picked up my pieces of scattered&shattered heart and replaced it with one that desires to only be with You. Thank You that even though I'm outwardly wasting away, the precious blood of Jesus Christ RENEWS ME DAILY. Thank You for wanting me, desiring me, and pursuing me always. Thank You, Lord Jesus for choosing to die for me. Thank You, Ahbujii, for being the best Father I can ever ask for. Thank You, Holy Gee, for leading me through ups and downs everyday.
My heart truly goes out for those who are daily choking themselves in their false desires. Oh Lord, please put Your mighty hand upon their heart and draw them closer to You. Please overwhelm them with Your compelling love that they may do nothing but love You back with THEIR LIVES. Oh Lord Jesus, I'm nothing but an empty vessel that contains a VALUABLE TREASURE. Please shine out of my cracked jar into the hearts of the Lost. Oh Lord Jesus, please use me to bring people closer to You. I'm ready, Master.
It's just You and me, here now.
It's just You and me.
You should see the view... So beautiful..
I'm all Yours.
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