I had two years of bitterness, jealous, anger, and secret hatred towards her. Back then, I felt as if she ripped the most important person out of my life.. and I kept saying, "you gain one. you lose one." Thinking about it, the reasons I fell into my sins in the past were indirectly related to her.. so much anger bottled up..
Tonight, I had the most awesome convo with her on the phone. I can't believe how much the Lord has healed me.. and how I have nothing but GENUINE CHRIST-CENTERED LOVE FOR HER. I want to walk with her, cry with her, and be the big sister that she needs. I want to spur her towards the love of Jesus Christ. I'm so encouraged that we've continued sharing verses with each other daily.. ah, this brings me so much joy.
Today, I was alone the whole day before Rosa came. I realized that I don't need people around me to make me happy. Many times, I'm truly joyful when I'm in my car driving and singing praises to Him..shouting out the window and just screaming my lungs out. I'm truly joyful when I'm laying on my bed during my SOAK time and just feel the HolyG moving in me.. comforting me..and healing me slowly. Today, I looked at the mirror and just started cracking up. I was so joyful..looking at myself joyful. It's not that I think I'm all that beautiful.. i just LOVE to see the new Twig. I love to see the Spirit-filled Twig. I love to see the smile on my face.. the natural joy that bursts out of my soul. JESUS HAS TRULY TRANSFORMED ME. I AM JOYFUL.
Thank You, Lord Jesus.
Here is a verse from my mei2 tonight:
"I will give thanks to the Lord because of his righteousness and will sing praise to the name of the Lord Most High."
I was trying to hold my laughter. It didn't work. Jesus makes me go insanely HA HA HA.P.S. Like the pads on my closet door? ;)
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