Anatomy

Do you guys realize that it's the END OF THE SEMESTER?! I'm absolutely flabbergasted still (I only use this word when I am really flabbergasted, haha)! Today is my last day of real school with exams hitting in next week..then...winterbreak. WHAT THE HECK?! I thought it'd be the longest semester ever.. with all the stuff I had to go through.. but in retrospect, it was so frigging fast. God really accelerated my time. Even better, God really accelerated my healing. I'm more than blessed.

I'm so sad that Anatomy is over. I met five amazing people in that class. One was my co-worker, one is a good buddy of Jesus Christ, and two that I've been encouraging and reaching out to. I thought that they would merely be classmates.. but they turned out to be friends I can keep forever...friends that I desire so badly to share Jesus Christ with. I'm so sad that it's over.. I'm so sad that there is no more kahzillion non-english words to memorize. Even though I came out of that class with ABSOLUTELY NO KNOWLEDGE, I came out with some darn good friends. Praise God for them.

On the other hand, my walk with God has been so stable. It's so stable that it feels like I've been lacking so much intimacy with Him. Do I really need to roll on the ground, throb in pain, drown myself in tears, screaming into an empty house "AHBUJIII!!" feeling warm shivers down my body, hearing Him whsiper in my ear, have random visions, T my heart out, etc etc for me to feel intimate with the Lord? I need to STOP relying on EXPERIENCES WITH GOD but GOD himself. High mountain top experiences are blessings from the Lord.. but when He chooses to stop being all POW WOW in my face is the time when He trusts me the most. It's almost a BLESSING to stop having these experiences..cause these experiences are SO fleeting. Lord Jesus Christ, this day is Yours. You are my LORD. You don't revolve around my college life..but my college life revolves AROUND YOU. May everything I do today, the words that come out of my lips, the thoughts of my mind..be all led by the HolyGee.