Very Broken

Stolen from and taken by Kinpuffs.

Daddy,
Your Word tells me this morning,
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, HE IS A NEW CREATION; THE OLD IS GONE, THE NEW HAS COME!!! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God reconciled the world to himself in Christ, not counting men's sins against them...God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God."

Tell me, Ahbujii, why am I awake so early in the morning to study my Chem? Tell me why I have to make a better than 68% on this exam? How can I jump out of my bed and dig myself in my endless notes after that phone call last night? I don't know what to do but weep for her. How can I live the way I live when there are more people like my dear sister out there?!?!
She's so very broken, Lord Jesus. It took me one huge fall to finally stand back up. How many more huge falls will it take her?! How many more hell nights?! How much more shame? How much more fear? How much more pain? How many more cycles? My heart breaks so deeply for her.. I have grown to love her so deeply. The hell can I do as a sister? I have experienced freedom from my chains.. I have truly experienced what it means for my OLD TO BE GONE..AND MY NEW TO COME. But there are so many people out there who hasn't truly experienced Your blood.. and those who have experienced it and yet keep falling back. LONELINESS. PEOPLE DO CRAZY THINGS to rid that feeling, only to find themselves in MORE LONELINESS.

I know that Your mighty hands is upon her, Daddy. I know that Your heart weeps uncontrollably more than mine. I know that You love her so much more than I do. I let go..knowing that You're in control. Please mold her through this horrendous experience. Please draw her all the more closer to You. Please teach me to be a better sister, to be a better accountability. Please embrace her with your wings of love and grace today. Please teach her to TRULY RISE UPPPPPPPPPPP!!! I pray against those Big Fat Nasty Evil Bastards who are whispering lies into her head and dragging her back into her life. She belongs to You by the precious blood of Jesus Christ and we are FIGHTING FROM VICTORY. Please, Holy G, pierce into her heart that through You, she can overcome any temptation. Please Holy G, be her driving force at school today..

Be my driving force today..

P.S. Why the heck do people celebrate Halloween?! Aren't we celebrating that Bastard's day!? So many bad attacks happened on Saturday night.... gahhhh! I'm not against trick-or-treating,pumpkins, or costumes.. it's fun! But there's still something weird about it..