Tired

I miss the beautiful views at retreat. Coming back, I'm so frigging exhausted. I didn't sleep too well last week because of all the exams. At retreat, I barely slept. Sleeping in tents ain't my thing.. it was FREEZING COLD and the fact that I didn't have my sleepingbag and was sleeping in basketball shorts really didn't help. My other friend was snoring so loud. I haven't heard anyone snore like that in my life. I kept waking up, frustrated and angry.

I have so much work to do. Esther called me at 5am this morning and woke me up so I can start on my anatomy lab report, which took me a whole week to finish last year. It's due today..and I haven't even STARTED. It's very common for me to wake up at 5am..after 6-7 hours of sleep. But I slept at 1am last night and this "staying up" deal is not a Twig-thing. Rest is so important to me or I would be extremely weak to fight temptations the next day. Rest has been my greatest weapon but today, I feel so weak....

My internet didn't work last night..seriously, BAD TIMING. I haven't flipped about school work in so long. I don't remember the last time I was emotional because of school..but last night, with my internet screwing up on me, I thought I was just gonna break down. I had to catch myself freaking out, run into the guest room, kneel down, and be still. I cast out my anxieties and fears and replaced them with the fear of the Lord. Then, I surrender my school load and reminded myself that HE IS THE LORD OF MY LIFE. I came back to my laptop.. and suprisingly, my internet was working enough for me to retrieve the information I need online. An hour later, my internet was fully functioning. Crazy, right? I didn't even fix anything..

This morning, He tells me through my quieTime,

"My grace is sufficient for you for my power is make perfectness in YOUR weakness."

I may feel weak today..but His grace will carry me through. I know it. He is sovereign and He is my Lord.
Today is Yours, Oh Lord.

P.S. Will update about retreat soon...