A Meal Together

Ines asked me, "What exactly is it that you want?"

"I just want us to sit down and have a meal together..."

A meal. It sounds so simple.. but means so much to me. The above picture was from our Thanksgiving meal last year 2008 at Friday's. The food wasn't all that great..but our bond and relationship is something I can't put into words. Our timed-conference calls. Our WingStop visits. Our walks at the park. Our crying. Our sharing. Our laughing. Our sleepovers. Our hair-plucking. Our prayers. Our bible-verse sharing. Our accountability. Our car rides in Agua. Our friendship. Our sisterhood in Christ.

But no, none of these belong to us. We don't belong to each other. We belong to our LORD JESUS CHRIST. When He wants to pluck it away, we can only let go and let Him take it..knowing that it's the best for us. Our friendship is His to give, His to break, and His to restore. We may not all be together..but I know this is the deepest love and reconciliation we have ever shown each other. It's the deepest fellowship we've had with each other..APART from each other and the deepest form of intimacy we have with the Lord.

We've made mistakes but God redeemed what Satan destroyed. We may be physically apart but I'm so glad..because I have never experienced such DEEP reconciliation before. Sometimes, the deepest reconciliation is the moment we learn to LET GO. If He restores us, great. If He doesn't, it'll be sad.. but He'll bring me through it and I'll rest in peace.

I'm content with where I am now. Thank You, Lord Jesus. I love my dear friends so much.. but that love comes from YOU. I love you, Ahbujii, so much more than them.. so much more than anything. I will guard my intimacy with You.. with MY LIFE.

Above all, the most important thing is that.. even if we're not with each other, WE WILL ALWAYS BE UNDER GOD'S ALMIGHTY POWERFUL LOVING HANDS..AND THAT IS THE GREATEST PLACE TO BE.