In Jesus Name

I feel like I've been living with unanswered questions all my life. Many times, unanswered questions frustrate and confuse me..but in the end, God is able to change my heart.. to be OKAY with unanswered questions.. to trust Him and to be at peace in His sovereignty. I've had questions that fly back and forth in my brain..and yet, never voiced out. In the end, they just die away like they never existed.

All in all, my heart's cry is just to sit at Your feet.. there is no better place to be.. there is no where else I want to be. I want to dwell there and never leave..
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"In Jesus Name, Amen."
What does that even mean? We say it ALL THE TIME. I've learned that it means on HIS behalf, for HIS purposes, and consistent with HIS character. It is not just a magic tagline we put at the end of a prayer.. it means something. We should pray not for what we want..but for HIS glory, HIS power, HIS purposes.

My prayers : "Jesus, I feel lonely. Will you please take away my loneliness?"
for HIS glory : "Jesus, I feel lonely. But if it takes this loneliness to draw me closer to You, to truly know what radical dependency on You means.. then I am willing to be lonely as long as You desire."

My prayers: "Jesus, Debbie is sick. Will you please heal her?"
for HIS glory: Jesus, if Debbie's sickness is able to glorify YOU and bring others closer to the Truth, then she will be sick as long as You desire. Not my will, not her will, but YOUR WILL be done."

What's the HEARTBEAT of my prayer? Does it align with HIS purposes and HIS character or MINE? Do I pray just to get what I want? Or do I pray for His name to be glorified?

Teach me to pray, Lord. I don't know how to pray.